~AlexxxsDominion

So, the other night I had a "girls night out". I can count on one hand how many times in my life Ive done this. Ha! We went for a couple beers at the Big River brew pub and shared a pizza (not so girly, hehehe) before going to watch Sex in the City (very girly). I hav to say best line was..." I can't color enough, I would color all day every day If I had my way, I would use every crayon in my box" think about or else watch the movie to understand. Cracked me up teehehehehe! Oh yeah! I cryed alot! Im such a baby watching movies LOL! but this movie has left me analyzing my so called "love life" past, present and future. Things I would rather not think about, ha! Figured if maybe I write it out it will rest in peace. So, after two looong term relationships, I feel like Ive developed a commitment phobia? Or havent found the right person? A few months ago I went to a fair with my bro and we both went to see the psychic. I believe anything is posible and so I gave her a chance. She was really good! It was almost scary! But she told me I already know my true love and my first response was..." what the heck! then where is he??!". LMAO! Why hide! Of course, at that point she had no anwsers, I walked away more confused then ever! When I talk to other people about this stuff they say..." no one is perfect". So, what? do I settle? ha! Dont think so. Or " give him a chance" and I thought I did by talking to him or sometimes her. hehehe. Oh! and the one that really makes you second guess yourself, " maybe your not ready yet?" Oh geebas! give me a break! Lifes too short for that bullshit. Get up! grow up and move on! Im happy on my own but this dating stuff can be really discourageing. Is it too much to ask for a some passion! Like the stuff we capture in photos, paint on canvas, write in books, make movies about and create music with. Anyways, I think Im never gonna watch a girly show again. Look what it does to me! :S but I do feel alot better now that I wrote that all down. Haha!

Hope your all having better luck than me,
Cheers,
Alexxx